i dream of him last night..
out of blue he came appear to my life again..

i thought of forgetting him..
as i'm not good enough for him..

i'm not pretty.
i'm not as clever as him.
i wont be making straight A's in everything i take.

even my english sucks.
for the first time in my life,
i feel like im not everything that i thought i am.

but i managed to find him again.
i found his blog.
i saw him so happy with the one he love.

people can only say let them be.
but seeing him so happy like that.
somehow hurts me.
i envy him.
i envy everything about him.

his brain.
his relation with his family.
his love one..
everything.

for once,i feel like im so small and i cant even reach anthing..


p/s:i know.. it sounded so epic.. i cant believe its easy to find him.. internet really is d greatest creation of humankind(well with the help of bill gates who created software and Konrad Zuse for making the 1st working computer) OTL..