Tuesday, 10 May 201118:27
■ begin to question myself
You know as much as I know la kan
most of my friends said
They dont want to get married
They dont want to have babies (they hates kid)
But I as in myself.
I do want to get married with a bless from family(of course)
and chosen by them (If can)
And I do want kids (I just love them)
the same reason why do I have 3 lovely dolls
with names, where I bought them cloths and shoes
=A=
anyway...
I want a guy who can guide me
to be a better muslim
T__T
though you should be doing alone
with your own self-intention
I just need some sort of motivation really
But Im leaving lolita for real.
No more sexy clothes
Just tshirt and jeans for now
Im still looking for a nice shawl.
(manage to find 1 only 8D;;)
god seriously man.
Its hard to do this transition.
I need support support not FORCE
You know my nature is, to change slowly not forcefully or I will turn rebellious.
its true.
anyway,
Lately I have been watching
those pregnancy and delivery
you know
those who´s going to have a baby
astro lol..
the pain and relief
it look so awsm really
I do want to be a mother suprisingly
:<
the question is do I get the chance to do all that?
